December 30, 2014

2014 Word of the Year

Remember this post from January? My word of the year - a new take on new year's resolutions. Like I said in January, this year I wanted to do something different from the typical list of resolutions. I decided to do one word instead, and this year I wanted to be all about growth.

For the most part, I'd say I was successful with growing. But I was successful in a way that I didn't necessarily intend. You see, I don't have a wardrobe fit for a young, stylish professional. I still don't have a "real" job, which means I'm not financially independent. And my lifestyle is probably the worst it has ever been - sedentary is an understatement. But I've grown in ways that I could have never imagined on January 1st of this year.

I've learned so much about myself. Since graduating I've started to see what my true values are. I've started to understand the kind of woman I want to be and the image I want to project. I find myself being so excited for the future now, whereas if you wanted to talk to me about the future in April I would have lost all color in my face and probably felt like throwing up everywhere. After walking across the stage I was able to take stock in my personal relationships; I was able to give more of myself to the people I care about and who I know care about me (that's a big one), and I was able to start cutting out the toxicity. It's been hard, but I know I'm doing the right thing. And since living in Knoxville with Bryan I am realizing that

I can do this. 

I can be an adult, and I'm going to get through these next 40 "working" years (as I like to call them) just fine.

I haven't found a job yet, but I will because there's no other option in my eyes. I know that when the day comes for me to get married and start a family, I'm going to be a great wife and mother, and my family unit is going to be strong. I know that I'm going to live a good life because I know what makes me happy, and I won't settle for anything less.

So no, I didn't accomplish every goal I had for myself in 2014. My "23 Before 23" recap says that loud and clear. But I know who I am. I know I'm on the right track, and just because some things are taking a little longer than I'd expected doesn't mean I'm failing. I feel like a totally different, better person today, at the end of December, than I did at the beginning of January. I feel like I'm where I need to be at this moment. If that's not a successful year of growth then I don't know what is.

How did you do on your 2014 resolutions?
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